Her Journey Towards Understanding Herself

It's been a long, long three and a half years since Alex and I met. It's been a long life. Depression tends to alter the way I think so drastically that as I phase out of it I can no longer recognize who I was at that time. I can't figure whether old weaknesses were [...]

Blessings in Quitting

So, normally I update this blog on Tuesdays, but yesterday was crazy. As soon as I woke up we all started getting ready and headed over to my best's friend house to pick up boxes and packing tape to help with our move. We spent over an hour chatting. Not long after we got home, [...]

Her Prayer Journal

I had every intention of writing a blog post last Tuesday. My brothers came over to spend the night, though, and I was exhausted as it was. By nightfall I was too overwhelmed to even think about it. Last week the boys came without much warning. This week there's a chance they might be coming [...]

Her Fight Against Suicide

Last weekend was a bad one. I've been suicidal on and off since the day I wrote and published 'When She is Suicidal.' It's progressively gotten worse. Sometimes I've told Alex. Other times, he probably didn't notice anything was off at all. Even on my worst days I still did everything on my To-Do lists, or [...]

His Current Goals

Sorry I'm late this week. I really don't have an excuse, just procrastination supplemented by a strange shift in my work week. (This is Mariah stepping in real quick. I thought about rewriting that paragraph above this one, but then again, it's kind of funny. It just came to my attention that this article has [...]

Her Perspective on Money

Alex and I have had several conversations about this topic since Saturday, both before and after he published his article with his texts to me. I don't think it's fair to him to publish that line of thought, because I'm hoping that his idea of money has already evolved into something beyond that. At the same time, he isn't [...]

Her Need For Closure

Some kind of flu hit our house this week. I was thinking I'd use that as my excuse for not updating the blog on Tuesday, but that's bogus. I haven't even been very sick, myself, and being bedridden has never been an excuse for me to stop writing before. (That's usually when I actually write.) [...]

His Perspective on Her Depression

I don't really have a singular perspective on Mariah's depression. It shifts and changes based on circumstances. I mostly know that when she is acting in her depression, that isn't really her. She becomes almost a different person. That tied with how quickly she gets angry about small (and large) things and a couple other [...]

Her Midnight Crisis

I don't know how I'm going to help my family get out of debt. But there's something I'm supposed to do.