I feel so empty. So alone. There is a void inside of me that nothing can fill. I haven't been sleeping well lately. Somehow I've transitioned over to taking a three hour nap during the day and then going to bed three hours later. This isn't good for me. And during this time, this time [...]


Her Journey Towards Understanding Herself

It's been a long, long three and a half years since Alex and I met. It's been a long life. Depression tends to alter the way I think so drastically that as I phase out of it I can no longer recognize who I was at that time. I can't figure whether old weaknesses were [...]

Life is Crazy!

I'd say there's a decent chance I'll be updating regularly starting pretty soon here. Possibly not in November, though. It will be National Novel Writing Month, after all. So much has happened!!! Where do I even start? Alright, first of all, I'm pregnant. Our rainbow baby is due mid-March. Due to circumstances and lack of [...]

Blessings in Quitting

So, normally I update this blog on Tuesdays, but yesterday was crazy. As soon as I woke up we all started getting ready and headed over to my best's friend house to pick up boxes and packing tape to help with our move. We spent over an hour chatting. Not long after we got home, [...]

I’m Tired

That's my catch phrase. Seriously. I need to stop. I've heard that you begin believing the things that you tell yourself regularly and that makes me worried that I'm never going to stop being tired as long as I keep admitting it. This will be an experiment I think is worth trying. Maybe I'll order [...]

A New Adventure!

I should explain little bit of my background here. As a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, I have been baptized and given the gift of the Holy Ghost, meaning I have access to the Holy Ghost's constant companionship as long as I am worthy of it. I was also given [...]

Raising My Children Differently

Last week was really busy. I didn't get much done in terms of personal projects. My brothers stayed at my house on and off all week, we did lots of driving, we went to Evermore (it was amazing), and I spent half of Sunday cooking for Father's Day for my dad and husband. I can't [...]

Her Prayer Journal

I had every intention of writing a blog post last Tuesday. My brothers came over to spend the night, though, and I was exhausted as it was. By nightfall I was too overwhelmed to even think about it. Last week the boys came without much warning. This week there's a chance they might be coming [...]

Our Business-Marriage Relationship

I'm watching Alex is put together his first YouTube video for his D&D course, Adventurer's University. And I'm cringing. A lot. First he used his super fake cheerful sales voice that he uses at work, with a fake smile and too many wide hand gestures. Then he had to stop to figure out what he [...]

I Choose Depression

By that I don't mean "I choose to feel depressed." Not in the sense you might be thinking. And it isn't all-encompassing. This is something I realized just a few days ago. I've been making a lot of changes in my life lately, and a lot of credit goes to the goal-setting system I've been [...]